6 months ago we were unaware of the little one who would soon enter our world and steal our hearts, how could we have know the intensity and the enormity of the love we would get to experience. , and as one of my new favorite authors Shauna Niequest puts it:
"I am superhuman in my love for him (her son), that if he needed me, I would fly or bend steel or wrinkle time with the force of my love. And in the same moment, I know that all mothers feel that way, and that all mothers feel the exact inverse, the awareness that people run red lights, and we wont be there to stand in front of our son's cars, shielding them from danger with our superhuman selves....I felt powerful and powerless in the same instant, full of rabid, crushing love, and also small and out of control and scared for all the life that my son will have to live without my protection. Parenting for me feels like a love so big I can't manage it, a force so visceral l I can't contain it."
These feelings are so wonderful and scary at the same time but I LOVE how they continuously bring me back the to prayers I have prayed numerous times, entrusting Miles to God and knowing and choosing to believe that He loves him more than I ever could. I also LOVE how these feelings help to give me a little glimpse of how much God loves us, so intensely and wildly that he laid down his life to bring redemption and restoration.
So here's to 6 months of poor sleep, dateless weeks, conversations about bowel movements, changing lots of diapers....we wouldn't trade if for the world!
2 comments:
Look at that big boy sitting up....like a BIG boy!!!! We miss him so much! I can't wait to see you all again. Thank you for sharing these beautiful pictures, and sing that little Big Boy a song from his Aunt Amy. What an angel! (I almost typed "what an angle!" He's such an angle!)
What a sweetheart! Oh my goodness...he's just growing up so fast! I love him so much!
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