Our Adoption Story

Monday, October 27, 2008

This is the Miracle

Before you were conceived I wanted you.
Before you were born I loved you.
Before you were here an hour I would die for you.
This is the miracle of love.

Maureen Hawkins 

Making the decision to have a child- its momentous.
It is to decide forever to have your heart go
walking around outside your body.

Elizabeth Stone

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb.
PSALM 139:13

From Birth I have relied on you; you brought me forth from my mother's womb. I will ever praise you. 
PSALM 71:6

We have been feeling the little baby boy moving around more and more. Adam was able to feel it for the first time just the other day. As I have been reading and learning about the process that is happening inside of me I have been sharing pieces of interesting information-well, little miracles- with Adam along the way, and we are just in awe of the Creator. The Creator of the entire universe, the one who made the heavens and earth, the originator off all things, is creating our unborn child. I remember when my sweet niece Olivia was born and how the thought of having children was not really a present desire in my life...until this little life came into my life and all of the sudden my capacity to love was deepened and I had no idea of what my heart could do. It has brought so much joy to our lives to watch God change and shape our capacity to love with each day, toward each-other and for this baby. I am so grateful for such a tender, sweet husband who is drawing our little family closer and close to God through this process - and I am so thankful for a God who sees and knows the depths of my scared mother heart and is meeting me right at my greatest need. 


Cindi Clark said...

What wonderful and touching thoughts. You write from your heart the thoughts that I had as a scared first time mom...and I'm sure your mom felt, too. It is such an awakening as you become so deeply aware of the depth of the unconditional and eternal love you feel for a son you have never even met. As you begin to realize that the love you feel for your baby is the same measure that your mom felt for you and I felt for Adam...it boggles the mind...knowing that I can never love my mom as much as she loves me...and I will never be loved by my children as deeply as I love them! It gives us a glimpse into the heart and mind of God who loves each and every one of us more than we can even possibly imagine...and to an extent that we can never repay.

You brought me to tears...thinking of my mama...and my children...and my grandson...your son...knowing how much love we all already feel for him. Thanks for sharing your sweet and tender thoughts. You are already an amazing mom!


Steph said...

Val - you are awesome. Adam - not bad yourself. I really enjoyed reading this, thanks for letting us see a minor part of your life now and what you're feeling. I would greatly appreciate you guys updating this blog more - and LOTS more pics - give us blog stalkers MORE to look at/read!!! I get bored at school and I flip to your blog (which is one of my favorites - my stalkerness is really showing), and when it's never updated, I get SAD, really sad - so please, for me, PICTURES :) I hope Adam is satisfied with not only my comment, but the length. Yeee wait a minute.....YEEAAA

Anonymous said...

I too am so glad God is taking care of your Mother-heart...
I love you three!

The Lantzes said...

hey! Congrats on the baby boy! YOu will have blast, boys are cool! Well, girls are probably cool too but I wouldn't know!

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